Baby Steps

It’s a good thing I decided to f#@% perfection, ‘cause making a blog is harder than I thought it would be!

It isn’t, but it is. It’s one of those paradox things :) I don’t think writing will be a problem for me; I like to write, I like to talk, I like to give grand speeches. But all the details, like linking other pages for things I want to share, adding photographs or videos…I’ve been researching for most of the day and I still haven’t figured it all out!

That’s ok. I’m an infinite being, so I have as long as it takes. And patience is a virtue.

I do acknowledge that all this research is distracting me from the fact that its been eight days and I still haven’t written a second post.

I think of all kinds of things to write about when I’m busy doing something else, far away from a pen or my computer or too involved to stop and write. When I’m giving a massage or doing energy work on someone, my mind starts to wander-and compose-and I have to really bring myself present and stay focused on what I’m doing. Then I can't remember the brilliant post I wrote in my mind.

I haven’t yet gotten into a habit of just sitting down and writing each day. I’m trying to carve out space in my schedule. I’ve noticed that as soon as I do, it seems to get filled in by other “really important stuff”, like posting classes, or checking in with long lost relatives and friends. Or cleaning out the refrigerator or sorting junk in the basement…you get the idea.

But that’s all part of this process of learning to love myself, isn’t it. Learning to laugh at my self, when I catch me doing these things. Laugh and gently re-mind my self what it is I wanted to be doing. I’ll get there. Eventually. And I''m sitting here writing now, right? So YAY ME!!!!!

I took another big step for ME today. I signed up to be a Self-Love Ambassador with Christine Arylo. I’m vowing to write about my self-love adventure in my (brand new!!) blog and share on Facebook throughout the year.

It was actually kinda scary to do that, make that commitment.

Now I’m going to be constantly reminded that I said I was going to do it. Yep, re-minded. (We’ve already established that I need that :)

I know I’m not the only woman who has trouble with the concept of loving herself. And women are not the only people that have trouble grasping it-humans in general seem to stumble over this.

The only ones who are relatively free from this judgement of self are small children who don’t give a dang yet what anyone thinks of them. They just enjoy life (and themselves and their bodies!) I want to get to that place again, where I just enjoy life. En-joy it!!!

This is from the welcome letter I received: “Welcome to TEAM LOVE, where we are all about using the power of love to inspire, guide and encourage people to love themselves unconditionally and with full permission. And as a result... have so much more love to share with the people they love, and ultimately the world.”

Sounds good to me!

Shining brightly,

Kathy