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01 Apr

Finding More Time

Posted in Creativity/Art, Inspirational, Life Lessons, Uncategorized on 01.04.16

I’ve always had trouble with time. I’m 10 minutes late to everything.  Even system clock on my computer is 10 minutes off. I set it to the correct time and before I know it, 10 minutes slow again.

“You were born late,” my mother always pointed out to me, “and you’ve been late ever since.” Thanks, Mom. I think I got that from her. She was born late/always late, too.

Genetic predisposition aside, I’m pretty sure it has something to do with having too much on my plate. Schedule crowded with (other peoples) activities, projects to work on, household chores, cooking, laundry, gardens to tend.

I have books to write and paintings to paint. I can’t seem to get to either…

So I started paying attention to what I’m actually spending my time on. I took notes for a week or so. The results were surprising.

I found large blocks that I was wasting because I didn’t think it was “enough” to get anything done. I was looking for small blocks—I know I can get a LOT done in 15 minutes if I try.

But what I found were hours!!!! Some of those blocks of time were 60-90 minutes. And I was filling them with e-mail and Facebook and random reading.

I have to thank Nina Amir, The Inspiration to Creation Coach, for helping me see what I was doing.

After reading her blog post “How to Make Time to Write”, I’ve been following Nina’s advice and “focusing” my time into those blocks I discovered.

That feels soooo much better than “managing”! Managing feels hard, like trying to force things into some kind of order (against their will.) But focusing feels easy! I’m just looking into the space and allowing my energy to flow through me into it.

Not only am I getting things done in those space, I’ve also overcome one of my other major barriers to success—deciding which of my many projects to pursue. I don’t want to leave anything out, but I don’t have time to do everything! I end up going around in circles and doing nothing.

Surprise! I actually do have time. By working on a different activity in each block, I don’t have to pick one over the other. I’m able to fit everything in. Slow, steady progress is making a difference already.

I now have a block for Writing, Research, Painting, Learning, and cooking dinner. Yes, I still have FB and e-mail time, but I limit it with a timer. Best of all, I shut off my laptop every evening at 10:00 and read fiction for fun!  Now I just need to find a block to insert Exercise….

Interestingly, when I started looking for the spaces in between the activities and focusing my self in them, not only were the spaces bigger than I thought, time seemed to s-t-r-e-e-e-e-t-c-h out into even more time. Maybe I step into a different dimension where time runs differently than this “reality”.

Do you have too much to do and not enough time? Have you found a soulution? (I did that by accident, but I left it on Purpose :) Tell me about it. I’d love to hear your adventures with time.

In service to Love,

:)Kathy

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15 May

Athena Sprang Forth, Why Can’t I?!!

Posted in Creativity/Art, Inspirational, Self-Love!!! on 15.05.15

OMGosh!!!! I am so excited! A friend of mine, Denise Daffara, has just opened a new eCourse called Gypsy Creativitea.  How awesome does that sound?!! It promises to be “6 weeks of art journaling, conversation, connection, communitea, intentional creativitea, painting, mystery, wonderment, freedom and fun”.  And tea. ‘Cause there will always be tea with Denise!

Creativitea

I met Denise in an online class a few years ago. She has since taken Shiloh Sophia’s Color of Woman teacher training course and started teaching her own classes using the Intentional Creativity method. I’ve been cheering her on from afar (she lives in Australia, I live in Michigan.)

Now she’s teaching a class with Gypsies-an ecourse- and I just have to do it—it’s going to be so amazing! I watched her sample painting video (you can sign up to watch it here) and I had goosebumps the entire time. I am so inspired after watching her!

There is also a really cool video Denise did about Smashbooking that you should totally check out :) (Scroll down the page to see it.)  I’ve never done a Smashbook before, it looks like a much free-er, more “in the moment” scrapbook. All the fun without the fuss or the need to be perfect. That sounds lovely!!

I had a really funny reaction as I was watching her paint. First I noticed I was thinking, “I want to paint like you when I grow up”. I took my first painting class with Shiloh Sophia almost 4 years ago. I’ve done probably 2-3 paintings a year, so far I’ve completed 8.

My work is pretty good, but I can see where I need improvement. My technique is kind of uptight still. I tend to cover all the spaces and connect all the lines, not the free flowing, loose loveliness that I imagine I will paint. That sort of frustrates me. I suppose if I painted more, I would improve (ya think?!) Forget that Denise has been painting for over 15 years–I want to paint like her!!!! NOW!!!

This funny image popped into my head. I think I’m like Athena, who sprang forth fully grown from my Zeus’ forehead. Instead (in my image), I sprang forth in a baby’s body.  I was surprised!

I feel like I’m looking at myself saying, WTF?! I have to wait? I have to do all the growing stuff? I have to learn everything from scratch?!!!! That’s not fair!!!!!!!  I didn’t know I had to do all this! You tricked me!! Dang it.

LOL. I can just see baby me saying that. Pounding her little fist, stomping her little foot. That rather made me laugh.

Aries Baby

I EXPECT myself to like Athena, fully capable and skilled at everything, right out of the gate. I don’t ever want to give myself time to learn and develop, to make mistakes. Do you do that, too? That’s really unfair (and not very nice) to us, isn’t it?

Heavy sigh. I guess I’m just going to have to get busy and put in the work, there’s no way around it. Having that image of myself will (hopefully) help me not take life quite so seriously.  And having something as gorgeous as this eCourse to participate in will make it so much fun! Thank you Denise, for all your hard work and being willing to put yourself out here to share with us and guide us along.

Illuminator in progress detail WM

This is my Vow–I will connect with my wild, Gypsy soul! I will release the need for perfection! I will allow myself to play and be messy! I will allow myself to create without judgement! I will connect with the community of other freedom seeking spirits! Doesn’t that sound wonder-full? Will you join me?!!

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04 Mar

In the pits? Climb out with the Emotional Guidance Scale

Posted in Inspirational, Law of Attraction, Life Lessons, Self-Love!!!, Spirituality on 04.03.14

People, this is really important. This one little tool will help you climb out of any bad place you may find yourself. It’s called the Emotional Guidance Scale and it was created by Abraham-Hicks. Here’s how you use it:

Identify where you are on the scale, make a statement about where you are now, like “I’m feeling really depressed today.”

Then look at the emotions above depression and reach for one, maybe jealousy, then make a statement about that, “Everyone else seems to have such a great life, why does mine suck!!”

Now reach above that, how about anger, “It really pisses me off that all this bad shit keeps happening to me!!!!”

Then reach for blame, “It’s my stupid bosses fault I hate my job! He’s such a jerk!”

Then boredom, “I’m so tired of feeling like this. I wish I could just quit. I don’t think I’ll ever be happy!” That jumped up to frustration. See?! One step at a time, you move yourself up the ladder of emotions.

The problem with emotions is that people try to get you to not feel them. We’re told its ‘bad’ to be angry, not very evolved. We should all be sunshine and light.

But when you’re feeling depressed or sad, you can’t see the sunshine, you can’t reach the light. You can’t access the emotions of joy and love from depression-it’s too far away vibrationally.

So getting angry about your situation is actually a good thing! It’s moving up the vibrational scale. Once you get to anger, now you have access to the emotional vibrations just above it.

Then when you move up to there, you can reach higher! usually once I get above number 8, Boredom, it’s easy to get to the top.

Try this the next time you’re feeling crappy about something. See how high you can fly!!

 Emotional Guidance Scale

 

THIS is also the key to the Law of Attraction. More about that another time…

Shining brightly!!!!!

Kathy

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08 Jan

Here We Go Again! Reset for 2014

Posted in Inspirational, Life Lessons, Self-Love!!! on 08.01.14

It’s January 8th already. Where the heck did 2013 go?! Did it seem like a blur to anyone else??? I tried to make time to enjoy life, to stop and smell the roses. I tried to s-l-o-w down and not cram so much into my days. I tried to just sit still and BE. I didn’t think I was racing along, but the year seemed like it slipped away, just the same. I really need to take a few moments this week to think about what I accomplished. I have Leonie Dawson’s Amazing Biz and Life Planners to work on. These things are amazing! Very colorful, very happy, very fun-I need fun in the worst kinda way! I have a tendency to take life way to seriously. I probably should have done them in December in order to properly prepare to welcome the new year, but I figure if I get them done sometime in January, I’m still good. I recognized about last October that I wasn’t getting anywhere and that was because I hadn’t set a destination for myself. I hadn’t completely filled out my workbook from last year, I hadn’t set any real goals. I had nowhere to really focus my self. No wonder I didn’t get anywhere! Except in circles, of course.  I think I’ll move forward this year.

amazing books

Amazing Biz and Life Planner Workbooks!

 

These awesome workbooks begin by review the past year- your successes, lessons learned, gifts you discovered- and gives you a way to record them and then release them. Then we move on to the New Year and what we’d like to do NOW. Capture the dreams that are whispering in our hearts and give them a place to live while we map out a way bring them to life. Leonie asks wonderful, thought-provoking questions that draw all the wonderful ideas right out of you.  If you let your spirit answer, you might be surprised at what You want to do.  You get to break it down, step by step until you get to such a tiny Next Step that it’s easy to do. And fun!!!!!  There are beautiful calendars so you can map out your year and stay on track. They’re only $9.99 each-spare change!!! You can buy one or both. (Please note: If you click through the workbook picture, that is my affiliate link. I’ll get a bit of money for sending you in her direction. Thanks!!!!!)

I’ve noticed that more and more people are deciding that New Year’s resolutions are no longer effective (snort-like they every were!!) and instead are making Intensions or deciding to just feel something–more love, more joy, more peace, more ease. A lot of people are choosing a word to help them remember their feelin/intention. I’ve been paying attention to ME the past few weeks and what keeps coming up is the need for more SUPPORT. Everywhere I look I see “let me help support you”, “ask for the support you need”. Apparently I’m not supposed to do everything on my own. Apparently there is a whole world full of people who love me and want to help me reach my goals.  That’s sort of a foreign concept to me. I’m an Aries, born in the Year of the Dragon. I’m a Type3 energy-determined action!  My aunt reminded me not long ago about how I used to stomp my feet when I was little and declare “I can do it myself!” I’ve always been tough, not needing help (and not asking for it even if I did!) In trying to raise my family, have a good marriage, build my massage/energy practice, paint, write, bead….it has been suggested to me repeatedly by my business coaches that I get support and ask for help. Not try to do everything on my own. Hmmmm. How does one ALLOW that??!

I’ve started by asking my family to help me cook dinner. That’s always the thing that throws me off the most, having to stop what I’m doing to cook. There are seven of us–if we each take a night, then I’ll only have to cook once a week. I call dibs on left-over night J My kids think this is a great idea. They can make what they really want to eat. And I have a tendency to (a-hem) overcook food because I wander away to do something else. Let’s just say, our smoke alarm goes off frequently. So, throughout this year, I’ll allow support of the Universe.  That sounds kinda nice. I’ll let you know how it goes.

How was 2013 for you? Do you have an Intention or Word of the Year? Please leave a Comment below!!

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26 Aug

Inspiration

Posted in Inspirational, Life Lessons, Spirituality on 26.08.13

 

Have you ever had their fingerprints read? I have been studying scientific hand analysis for fun and personal insight for the past year. It is so fascinating!!! I’ve learned that your fingerprints are formed between 14 and 16 weeks gestation and never change. They hold the map to your Life Purpose (what you came here to this earth plane to do/be) and your Life Lesson (your blind spot, the thing(s) that trip you up consistently and keep you from living your Purpose). This has been studied and document at great length by people such as Richard Unger at International Institute of Hand Analysis. I’ve been studying the works of Baeth Davis and Ronelle Coburn. I’ll write a whole post explaining this in more detail soon. Really soon. :)

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So, my Life Purpose (written in my hands!) is to be a Successful Visionary Shaman. I did not make that up, people. I was told by an expert hand analyst!! In addition, I have gift markers for healing and communication through writing and speaking, and wealth generation.  Gift markers don’t mean that I am more “gifted” at these things than anyone else, just that I must be doing them and there is a penalty if I don’t.  In the case of the gift marker “Lines of Genius”, the penalty for not speaking/writing in public is chasing my tail and getting buried in papers. Yep. I am supposed to be successful, wealthy public speaking/writing healer with the ability to transform other people’s consciousness by Being ME!! How awesome is THAT?!! I am sitting on a gold mine of abundance for myself, apparently, and Great Awakening for other people and I’m too scared and insecure to dig into it! Well, POD and POC that!!!! Let’s get to digging!

 

First up: Life, being a mirror, showed me immediately where I need to do some work. A friend of mine,  Lindsi Jo Gabler, recently got courageous and started a blog, Leopards and Peacocks, on refashioning clothing and accessories, something she is PASSIONATE about. I saw her doing this-setting up the blog, making business cards and actually photographing projects to post!-and for a brief moment (like, 2 days :), I was mad at my self. I called my self names and coulda/shoulda/woulda’d my self about how I was not doing the same thing. I’ve been meaning to get to work on my website and write more blog posts and put my prayer beads in my Etsy store….but I always manage to be really busy doing something else. And then I forget for weeks at a time until something /someone (usually my husband!) shakes me up and tells me to get back to work. Sigh.

 

(Insert Laughter at Self here) As I was writing this, it started to creep into my awareness that this rant sounded awfully familiar; I’ve been here before. If you have read my other blog post, The Possibilities of ME, you will notice that I had this same situation come up way back in January-somebody else doing what I want to do and me beating myself up for NOT doing it. I came to the same conclusion this time as last time-someone is showing me WHAT IS POSSIBLE; what I can do, if I would only do what I can do. I’m making progress. Last time it took me 2 weeks to see it, this time it only took 2 days. Maybe next time (and there will be a next time :), it will only take 2 minutes.

 

THANK YOU, Lindsi Jo, you are inspiring me greatly!  Your fabulous energy as you are creating the space for  the exploration of your passion is charging me up to get to work on mine! You are re-minding me that I can do this, too!!!!

 

Shining brightly!!!!

:)Kathy

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20 Feb

Trust me, you REALLY wanna do THIS!!!!

Posted in Uncategorized on 20.02.13

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The Goddess Circle is an online sacred space with e-courses, meditations & kits to help you discover the creative, wise, joyful Goddess in you! There are three e-courses you can enroll in to be a part of this amazing experience.

  • The Radiant Goddess e-course: a 21 day journey to discovering the radiant goddess in you. This e-course comes with nutrition and movement plans, meditations, a recipe plan & soulful goddess projects to help you shine all over: mind, body and spirit!
  • The Creative Goddess e-course: a six week path to discover the creative goddess inside you with sacred creativity, meditations & projects.
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With each e-course, you’ll receive meditations, videos, guidance and projects. You also get access to a private online message board for you to share your journey with other Goddesses on the journey!

Over the last five years, Leonie has helped over a thousand women discover the Goddess inside them.

 

http://leoniedawson.com/affiliate-redirect/?p=quantumkms&w=circle

 

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31 Jan

The Possibilities of ME

Posted in Creativity/Art, Inspirational, Life Lessons, Self-Love!!! on 31.01.13

I am totally going to have to do a Facebook fast for a few days! See, as part of my new plan to Love ME, I want to do more creative things. So I’m taking this amazing e-course called Bloom True with Flora Bowley! She makes these incredibly awesome paintings. Check out this video of her in action.

Class actually started Monday, but the Facebook group opened last Thursday. Basically, I’ve been on Facebook since then, chatting with this beautiful bunch of people from all over the world who are gathered together to bravely, intuitively create. We’ve been posting pictures of our studios/art rooms/spaces, our supplies, our alters, our hopes and excitement for this course. We’ve been sharing our previous work and the first stages of our new creations. It has been a blast!! I keep checking my page and “liking” and “friending” and commenting on everything!!  I literally sat here at my computer from 2:00pm until 8:00 on Tuesday and all day yesterday! I think I’m getting carpal tunnel and I’m tired of sitting :)

Here are some pics of my canvases after my first lesson.

Splatter and Spray

Splatter and Spray

This is canvas #1-paint splattered on it while listening to Philip Philips Home. I sprayed it with water and made it run, which was really cool! I kinda wish I would have stopped at this point, but the blobs of paint bothered me, so I kept squirting them and they kept running until eventually all the paint ran off the canvas and I was left with this….

Lovely Sunset Background

Lovely Sunset Background

My new mantra of F#@% Perfection should have kicked in before I got crazy with the water bottle, but I remember now, come to the conclusion that at least I learned how  to create a beautiful sunset background. Pat myself on the back for coming up with such a positive interpretation of this experience (’cause that wasn’t what almost came out of my mouth when I told my husband about it.)

 

Canvas #2, was finger painting!!! I put on Touch the Sky, from the soundtrack of the Disney movie Brave, and a BLINDFOLD, and allowed myself to totally let go and dance to the music, smearing paint as I went. My Inner-Child was having a delirious time doing this!!! Here is how it came out…

(Finger) Paint Dancing

(Finger) Paint Dancing

One of my classmates pointed out to me that it looks like a big red happy faced  rabbit. My said the red handprint on the left, reminded him of Wilson, from Castaway.  With those things in mind, I sat back to see what I could see…and I Saw something. I’m not gonna tell you what yet. That would ruin the surprise :)

Being in this painting class, along with the other two classes I’m taking-Marked by the Muse, with Cosmic Cowgirls; and Book of Days, art journaling with Effy Wild-I am working alongside some amazing women! Artists, poets, painters…they all seem to be so much more talented than me (I fear.) Their spreads are gorgeous. Their poems are deep and insightful. They paintings are vibrant and alive with color. I went through a very dark period at the end of last week where I was seriously doubting my abilities. Like, boohoo- whoa is me- will I ever be able to do that?- doubting. Have you ever done that? Just wonder if you would ever be good enough?? Brave enough?? Pinched yourself up small and tight?

And then, there was this moment…I was watching a video blog done by a new friend in one of my classes, Wild Bella Rouge, her very first one. And suddenly it hit me-and I do mean HIT! It felt like a cosmic smack in the head! These women are showing me WHAT IS POSSIBLE. They aren’t doing what they do to make me see  my faults, lack of ability, lack of talent, cowardice-I’m doing that to myself!! I had this major shift happen, right in the center of my solar plexus, and my heart opened  wide and I Saw that they are showing me what I can do, if I would only do what I can do. They are an inspiration!! That is a subtle, but powerful mind-shift. I’m saying I want to be a painter, an art journalist, a writer…and the universe is showing me all the fabulous examples of women doing just that! Being creative, being intuitive, being brave. The universe is trying to tell me, YES! You can do this!! Look, See, she did it! You can too!! Instead of being small and feeling sorry for myself, I should  look at what these other women are doing and REJOICE!!! And say, “Me, too! Me, too!!! What do I need to know to do that, too?!!!!” And then follow the trail that appears….

Shining brightly!!!!!

Kathy

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22 Jan

Baby Steps

Posted in Inspirational, Self-Love!!! on 22.01.13

It’s a good thing I decided to f#@% perfection, ‘cause making a blog is harder than I thought it would be! It isn’t, but it is. It’s one of those paradox things :) I don’t think writing will be a problem for me; I like to write, I like to talk, I like to give grand speeches. But all the details, like linking other pages for things I want to share, adding photographs or videos…I’ve been researching for most of the day and I still haven’t figured it all out! That’s ok. I’m an infinite being, so I have as long as it takes. And patience is a virtue.

I do acknowledge that all this research is distracting me from the fact that its been four days and I still haven’t written a second post. I think of all kinds of things to write about when I’m busy doing something else, far away from a pen or my computer or too involved to stop and write. When I’m giving a massage or doing energy work on someone, my mind starts to wander-and compose-and I have to really bring myself present and stay focused on what I’m doing. Then I can’t remember the brilliant post I wrote in my mind. I haven’t yet gotten into a habit of just sitting down and writing each day. I’m trying to carve out space in my schedule. I’ve noticed that as soon as I do, it seems to get filled in by other “really important stuff”, like posting classes, or checking in with long lost relatives and friends. Or cleaning out the refrigerator or sorting junk in the basement…you get the idea. But that’s all part of this process of learning to love myself, isn’t it. Learning to laugh at my self, when I catch me doing these things. Laugh and gently re-mind my self what it is I wanted to be doing. I’ll get there. Eventually. And I’m sitting here writing now, right? So YAY ME!!!!!

I took another big step for ME today. I signed up to be a Love Ambassador with Christine Arylo at Madly In Love With Me. I’m vowing to write about my self-love adventure in my (brand new!!) blog and share on Facebook throughout the year. It was actually kinda scary to do that, make that commitment. Now I’m going to be constantly reminded that I said I was going to do it. Yep, re-minded. (We’ve already established that I need that :) I know I’m not the only woman who has trouble with the concept of loving herself. And women are not the only people that have trouble grasping it-humans in general seem to stumble over this. The only ones who are relatively free from this judgement of self are small children who don’t give a dang yet what anyone thinks of them. They just enjoy life (and themselves and their bodies!) I want to get to that place again, where I just enjoy life-En-joy it!!! This is from the welcome letter I received:

Welcome to TEAM LOVE where we are all about using the power of love to inspire, guide and encourage people to love themselves unconditionally and with full permission. And as a result… have so much more love to share with the people they love, and ultimately the world.

 

Sounds good to me.

 

Shining brightly!!!!

Kathy

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17 Jan

Welcome 2013!!!

Posted in Inspirational, Self-Love!!! on 17.01.13

We made it!!!

There was much speculation about what was going to “happen” on December 21, 2012….I think what we did was make that quantum leap to the next level (you know, like the electrons circling the nucleus pop up to the next ring) I know I feel like I did! Ever since that day I have felt this incredible sense of expansion and possibility. And determination. 2013 is the year I’m going to do things differently. ‘Cause it damn sure hasn’t been working the way I’ve been doing things.

Every year I make a list of New Year’s resolutions. I’m sure mine looks like everyone else’s:  stop eating junk food, lose 20 (or 30 :) pounds, save money, clean out my basement and attic, grow a garden and actually eat everything in it, be nicer to my family, make my marriage stronger…The funny (or not so funny) thing is, as I look back through my journals, I make the exact same resolutions every year. Apparently I’m not very good at resolving things.

This year, though, I feel like doing something different. I feel like FEELING, instead.  Rather than make a list of actions I want to take, I am choosing to expand a feeling. I think I’ll start with LOVE. The thing we all are. There seems to be a wave of it moving through humanity, and it’s time I felt my share. I will begin by expanding my love for my self.  I am done being so hard on ME. I am done being mean to ME. I am done criticizing ME. I am ready to explore self love. What a concept?

LOVE is a verb. Practice it on yourself.

Love my self? Now that’s a concept.This isn’t the first time I have decided that I was going to practice loving myself. But it is the first time that I’ve really, truly felt it possible. And it is definitely the first time I’ve made it my New Year’s resolution.  One of my favorite authors, Christine Arylo, has just written a book called Madly In Love with ME. I bought it for myself for Christmas and it will be my starting point for this year. I am going to fall madly in love with ME. Ohhhhhhh, that sounds nice! I get kinda tingly when I say that.

Why, you may ask, is this the first time I’ve truly felt it was possible to love my self? Perhaps it’s because of my second resolution (which, I ‘spose, actually came first:) Put simply: F#@%  Perfection. Yep. Perfection sucks. Not gonna do it any more. It keeps me sitting around, waiting, accomplishing nothing and fearing what everyone else is gonna say/do/think about everything I want to say/do/think. Forget that. I’m going to LOVE ME and do what I know to do. Whether it’s perfect or not. Besides, who decides if something’s perfect??  It’s my life, my world, my creation! If I’m happy with it, that’s the most important thing. And because I love me, and I love you, and you love me, I bet you’ll be happy with it, too.

Shining brightly!!!!

Kathy

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